~~Child I saw you a tiny speck in your mothers womb

Child I saw you a tiny speck in your mothers womb
And I loved you

As the months went by you grew, I could see your body your features you were unique
And I loved you
Nine months passed and then you were born, proud parents held you, they presented you to me.
I blessed you and I loved you.

As years went by I watched you grow even more, from a baby to a toddler, a child starting school, I smiled that first day.
Because I loved you.

As more time went by and you became a teenager, I saw the tears and your lonliness, I saw you become a little mother to your family, mature before your time, struggling.
“I’m here” I said but you did not hear.

But I still loved you.

A few more years passed, you married young, you were happy for a while I smiled again.
Because I loved you.

I watched over you when each of your precious children were born, didn’t you feel me holding your hand? I wanted you to feel my presence, but you didn’t notice, I wept for you child because I knew what was to come, I wished I could have spared you from the pain, but you chose your way.

I still loved you

Years passed I watched you and I grieved I kept crying out to you.
”You don’t have to bear all that pain or shed those tears”
I could see your broken heart, I held out my arms child but you moved away, afraid and so damaged you couldn’t bear to let anyone touch you…not even me.

I watched you in your grief, I kept gently calling your name, sometimes I thought you heard me because you turned your head, but then you turned away.
How I wished you knew.
How much I loved you.

Then one day when I could see you couldn’t bear it any more, I sent you a message, this time I knew you would not ignore.
I sent the words “I love you don’t you know”

The words I knew all along would heal your heart and dry your tears.
I was right this time you heard, you were trembling as you reached out your hand to mine, I knew you were afraid, so I was especially careful to be gentle.
Child I smiled as I bathed your wounds with my love and as I wiped your tears, I 
know you felt that gentle kiss because your trembling stopped as I embraced you.

When you said how sorry you were that you hadn’t heard me before, that you hoped that I would forgive you for all the things that you had done wrong.
I said child “I forgive you remember the cross”…. You cried but I smiled  because then I knew you knew .
HOW MUCH I LOVED YOU!!!!!