Forget Me Not

There is only silence as the cold water encapsulates my body and time is still and unmoving. I float ceaselessly towards the navy blue darkness, it creeping closer and closer until all I see is black. 

I try to get away, to twist and writhe away from the darkness, but I'm too cold. My lungs burn so hot, I thought they'd warm my body by now; I only feel numb. 

I begin to reflect now, as the darkness becomes boundless.

The sky was vivid turquoise and the domes on the houses were bleached bone white. Little yellow and white tiles peppered with little suns and stars collected into little steps that lead down to the amass of white sand.

If I can remember, I was wearing a rich cobalt blue bathing suit and a light, gauzy white shirt. The shirt would gently fall off my shoulders and I would feel the warm sun on my skin. Too hot, I would think and then splash into the cool cerulean waters. I felt at ease, floating away on the water. I would close my eyes for moments on end and open them again only to find the shore further and further away.  

And this was fine. I was a good swimmer and could find my way back. 

I dipped my head back at that time and looked under the water. Pretty blue all around, only slightly darker than the sky. An empty ocean all for me. I dove deeper now, with a promise to only stay under for a moment. 

It was cooler under the waves, more serene. I lazed about and made circles with my arms. I kicked lightly, to and fro, and dove a little deeper. As I was about to finish my dance with the water I noticed the stark contrast of soft pinks rivets in the blue of forever. I was hypnotized as I swam towards it. There were many pink rivets now. All looking soft like ribbon strewn about at a ballet rehearsal. I wanted to go feel the velvety softness or at least get a better look at the marvelous, baby pink dream. I kicked closer until I floated in the midst of the candy pink of ribbons like that torn happily off a birthday present. 

Honestly, that's all I remember. Wisps of pink and the cerulean blue water and then, darkness. 

It's too cold now. It was so warm before, so nice. Even when I felt the burns of a thousand suns, it was still better than this. I still felt alive then. 

Now, I only feel numb as I drift ceaselessly.