good enough

Sometimes I wonder if I'm good enough to do the things that people say I can do. So many say that i'm strong, and able.... am I really? or do they just say what they want to? Dang.... I wish I knew. I"m so tired of walking away, running away and hiding. I'm so tired of being put in one position and I'm told to just sit there for a while and think about my life. I hate thinking.... I hate thinking of my life.... it's to much for me... this life is so hard for me.... I need strength I'm tired of trying, but it seems like I'm not trying. I'm tired of people looking at me like I'm crazy or if I'm stupid.... I'm tired of the "secret words" the "well it's not about you" the "you will never understand" the "You're not trying so just quit." 

I'M TRYING I SWEAR I AM, BUT I GUESS IT'S NOT HARD ENOUGH TO PLEASE ANYONE. NOT MY MOM... NOT MY DAD.... NOT MY FAMILY.... NOT ANYONE. I STAYED STRONG FOR THE LONGEST BUT YET MY STRONG BECAME WEAK... AND NOW I LIE DEEP IN MY COLD SHEETS LETTING TIME PASS ME BYE. WHO CARES ABOUT DREAMS... WHO CARE BECAUSE I KNOW I WILL NEVER BE ANYTHING ANYWAY.