I don't mean to sound

I just want you to know, that I don't mean to be crazy. I just have a fear of losing the ones that I love the most. How can i smile when all that I am losing, is leaving for good. I feel like you will just up and leave me, I'm afraid you will walk away from me for good. Go with the one you know better than me, and who knows you like the back of her hand. I guess she must love you more. Everyone says you guys are as cute as a button when you guys hang out.... then what are we? I'm losing the only thing that matters to me most. I really hate losing , I enjoy winning. Winning your heart and never letting it go. I enjoy hold your heart next to mine, and never giving it up. I enjoy kissing your lips, they are the only things that make me feel complete. I've been though hell and back, I've been through my ups and downs..... but if I keep falling, then maybe I will just stay at the bottom. No more dreams and wishes, I will give that up if I lost you. I can't keep moving forward if you are not there holding my hand making me feel like someone cares about me. I guess I'm losing to another female, who can maybe love you.... I know I sound crazy, but baby I don't mean to sound crazy... I've just lost so much that I can't keep giving up... I can't keep losing. but if you want to go, then "I only want whats best for you."