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As it turns out, I really like writing about controversial issues, not because I like to be offensive or stand out, but because I can flip around something so horrific and turn it into something quite productive, I do believe in god , a life after death but not the bible I live my life by what feels right in my heart, I do have a darker part of my mind that I lean on for writing material, but it does not define or guide me. I am quite philisophical as a person, in a world where if you ask a child what he ants to be when he grows up he will most likely tell you vegetarian or zombie killer, because society today has convinced 4 year olds that it is a option.
Nothing against vegitarians, but iv never met a healthy vegan, all the ones iv met are skinand bones and jerks to larger people. everyones entitled to their opinion, well as a carnivore I choose not to eat many plants because I find it cruel to trees to eat their detachable testicles and find it more rewarding and find it more mainstream with my already quite pagan lifestyle to disembowel cattle and live off their burnt flesh(mmmmmm bacon) im quite on in the fact I enjoy confrontation, not violence, but at the end of a argument when you know you have won, the only feeling that could compair to that would be a women passing out after seeing your dick and in her dazed delerium saying its so big. other than winning a argument you will never find that pride ever in your life. because even if you do something incredible like climb everest a person can just say well you look fat, and take away all that gratification.
I truly believe dumster babies to be convincing proof that a law of order to the universe does exist, we already know the world is still survival of the greatest(no longer fittest) if the baby does not scream loud enough, the garbage man never thinks to look in the trash can, there are about 105 found each year of those maybe 10 survive well those 10 dumster babies, now will live a life knowing they were cast out,unloved, and will certainly spend their entire life trying to get what they want most,love attention, acceptance. thus continues the process of life and death my religion is more of a smorgasbord of varying religions , I take what makes sense in all of them as well as my own and other people who I can agree with and fit them together, because life itself is not a rational problem therefore finding the answer cannot be logical either.
Ijump around a lot when I write because if you bake a cake you dont do it one step at a time if you do, you have something up your ass that needs to be taken out.what you do is you get the ingredients as your setting it up flour, surgar,as you go down the list checking it off in your head you alreadyknow u need eggs but just b4 u crack them u check the recipe to make sure its not a instant recipe, but needless to say you dabble hither and thier until a few hours later you have a fully iced slightly toasted cake.
That is how I choose to speak and right I dont talk one thing at a time, right now its cars 30 seconds later its carmel aple candy, to you I sound like im nuts, but to me it all has a connection , and all is just as important as the first.
Some of you reading this are asking yourself, why is this deluded man even sharing this with us, sorry God the world does not revolve around you, im sharing this because maybe just maybe there are other people with autism or writers or just above average confused people who like thinking a little farther out of the box than most people and are looking for other stranded desert rats the scurry together and create a mother fucking brain storm so we can make it rain and exscape from this dry heat also known as, stupidity.
Because people in the world we live in today stupidy and gullibility has become rampant like a festering wound, the more we pick at it the worst it comes back. we can improve schools but there will always be that kid left out, because hes ugly or slower, or idk maby his mom didnt hug him because society took her away left him in a orphanage making him have tobattle with the other kids at the orphanage for the remote with the one button, it was the power button the power over life and death, but this kid never got to feel that power because due to some twist of fate he was lost tothe winds of time. now he hates himself he sees jamie lauren val victorian and cheerleader hottie marry the love of her life and just cant stand to see her happy, so he follows her home one night stabs her then rapes her ash she bleeds out. jaimie, just another person in. another grave. that lost boy who killed that sweet girl , he doesnt die
No
He uses that experience to get his life on track he tasted power hes addicted to it, uses it to go to school work his ass off pay off his depts decided hes gay marrys a man only to hhave his husband killed, but this boy knows pain he thrives on it. becomes a lawyer opens up a charity and a scholarship one for orphans and another for gays so that his lover may live in peace.
This is all hectic but all so so relavant. because this little boy was a dumster baby and now hes one of the greatest people in the world to some peoples perspectives
But a up and coming cop finds the trail of blood, that had long since gone cold,digs up old evidence and presents it to the judge putting the little boy who is now a rapist and a old man in jail forever, all his accounts are frozen, all those orphans are sent to the streets or to abusive foster homes they all hate the police now because cop to them means killer of my god
They dont understand he did wrong so they are most likely to repeat it
but this cop was just a son of a kind innocent women who died at the hands of this man, a man who raped and murdered his mother for a quick pick me up. tohim the god of the orphans was nothi ng more than a reigning tyrant. do you see? do you see how in my mind it all connects, no matter how small or silly it all has meaning and virtue, to live through life you need both the light and the dark. a balance of good and bad, this does not in any way justify crime or violence but in order to truly know joy, you must know pain, and to know true pain you must give up everything and begin from the bottom up.

I hope at least some of you enjoyed this piece of my mind