Just the way i am

For most people they know where there going,know what carrer to choose,there life is being mapped and planned day to day.My life is so far from planned or mapped for i find it a struggle to keep my bedroom tidy,I am always running late and never can hold a job down too long.From early childhood i can remember it being a happy one,was loved by both my parents and being the youngest probably got away with too much!!!,yes maybe a little spoiled so is this my problem? Is this why i find the simple task in life so so difficult,see i find doing my make-up,hair and dressing myself a piece of cake and to be honest its probably the only thing i do not struggle with,Yes i am one of those people sure if my house is a mess bills coming out through my ears,late for whatever reason who cares i feel great because i have lovely eyeshadow,matching lipstick and looks rather ok so what the hell!!!!.

I am also one person people never seem to think i have any problems,I will sit and listen to people who are struggling with a problem,I give great advice{never follow} to people and love to help out in any way,I find it hard to say no,If i planned to go out and someone calls I will be that person who will stick the kettle on and my plans go out the window!!!.I am a fixer of everyone else's problems and yet my just seem to get bigger.Truly im so laid back slow to anger, traffic jams go over my head,Travelling in people cars I am so bedazzled how angry and upset they become,for some people there are issues that seem to drive them near to insanity one being having a bill thats due and they must pay it on time or else i dont know what they think is going to happen {prison] maybe,If that is the case I would have spent most my life in it so.

Life is an amazing experience and there are many walks,even though i seem to be always on the run and getting nowhere,I feel i have a purpose and no clue what on earth it is,I am a greatfull soul but yet so lost,full of energy yet lifeless,Colour surounds my face and clothing as i so love pink,Yet on the inside its grey.Im achildlike person,seriousness is not my forte for if I am noone takes me seriously!!!!!.So my story ends .Till next time x