It's been 4 1/2 years since i lost my dad and it was a hell of a long fight in the process and it feels weird to look back and see it's been so long already...it doesn't feel like it. I can't say it gets easier over time bc that is a load of bull-chips, but with time there comes a lessoning of how often it hurts home often every little thing reminds you of the one you lost until finally you can start to look at and think about all those once happy memories and they start to make you smile instead of cry, it's a bitter sweet smile non the less.
The world has an odd way of working out for the best even in the worst situations, when I was little my dad beat my mom making her want to beat me because I looked like him, he died when iwas about 10 and after that she still beat me, just less often because we started going to therapy now whenmy dad died I was sad I missed him so much only because I suppressed it but over time I learned it worked out for the best because if he didnt die probably the day would of come were my mother lost it and killed all of us.....this probably is not the reply you wanted but when I missed my father I missed the good dayss,the fishing trips the family camping trips, our boating days going to greet him when he got back from active duty so on days were I find myself thinking of him I think of the good times and not your regrets
Thank you for your reply. Things do work out for the best to those who have faith... that is a half quote from the Bible. I am glad I had the luxury of holding her hand when she died. I was there for her so I don't have any regrets. It is just so tough, but it is life and now I am learning this new side. She visited me in a dream so I know she is at peace. I just am going to miss the old gal. We had so good times and so tough times. I am glad you wrote me because we have to get this off our chest and think about what is going on inside. I stuff it down deep so I am glad to write to you. Take care and I appreciate your heart felt words.
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It's been 4 1/2 years since i lost my dad and it was a hell of a long fight in the process and it feels weird to look back and see it's been so long already...it doesn't feel like it. I can't say it gets easier over time bc that is a load of bull-chips, but with time there comes a lessoning of how often it hurts home often every little thing reminds you of the one you lost until finally you can start to look at and think about all those once happy memories and they start to make you smile instead of cry, it's a bitter sweet smile non the less.
Thank you, Amanda for your kind words of experience and wisdom. I will look forward to the bitter sweet smile but all I can do now is cry.
The world has an odd way of working out for the best even in the worst situations, when I was little my dad beat my mom making her want to beat me because I looked like him, he died when iwas about 10 and after that she still beat me, just less often because we started going to therapy now whenmy dad died I was sad I missed him so much only because I suppressed it but over time I learned it worked out for the best because if he didnt die probably the day would of come were my mother lost it and killed all of us.....this probably is not the reply you wanted but when I missed my father I missed the good dayss,the fishing trips the family camping trips, our boating days going to greet him when he got back from active duty so on days were I find myself thinking of him I think of the good times and not your regrets
Thank you for your reply. Things do work out for the best to those who have faith... that is a half quote from the Bible. I am glad I had the luxury of holding her hand when she died. I was there for her so I don't have any regrets. It is just so tough, but it is life and now I am learning this new side. She visited me in a dream so I know she is at peace. I just am going to miss the old gal. We had so good times and so tough times. I am glad you wrote me because we have to get this off our chest and think about what is going on inside. I stuff it down deep so I am glad to write to you. Take care and I appreciate your heart felt words.