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Me and my homie sat back and cracked jokes

After there was a silence 

He said the words "I don't want to live"

What you do you mean?

He said this world isn't for me It isn't where I wanna be 

After I lost hope in everything I began questioning myself 

I scream out for help but it seems like there is no cure I try to run away from my problems but nothing happens It feels like a loop and I’m stuck 

But I’m tired of screaming and shouting I think it’s time I go silently I think it’s time 

I told him but things have changed since the first time you told me this, I remember like it was yesterday you and me were in Grade 8

You said life was tough I’m gonna end it.

And I remember you were close to doing it you told me you even tried. 

But look at your life things have changed now you are a whole new man. 

You actually have friends who care for you and want you to succeed and live a long life. 

He laughed at this and said things have changed but the thoughts haven't faded seems like every time he close his eyes and tries to think of happy time he is reminded about the bad more than the good. 

He said it feels like I’m trapped in my mind. 

I wanted to see things I wanted to be someone else Seems like everyone is doing bigger and better things but I’m in the same spot 

I asked him "You serious what about everyone else? Everyone who loves you, how about your mom and dad, and the people who stood by behind you.

He said they tried to help with a smile on his face but they could only do so much.

I mean I can't say how much I appreciate what they have done for me but these thoughts just won't stop. 

There was a silence 

He wipes a tear off his face Then he said "I guess they will have to read all about it"