Sorted growing up, coming out & finding my place chapter 2

Chapter 2

The female
you perceive to be
is not the real "me"
The cover she provides
hides
The man struggling to be
set free
- MIKI

When I was about twelve and a half I became sick, not ill but sick of people treating me like someone I am not but they didn't know and nor did I at that moment in time. Soon after I realised that I am not what you see from a distance I am not the gender everyone just assumes I am no longer female, I have changed over time and become what I always dreamed of being... A male.

One thing that really annoys me is have a gender on a birth certificate because to apply for some jobs you need your birth certificate and my birth certificate has female as the gender but what gender am I really? Well the answer to that question can change it just depends on who you ask.  

My mother and father respect my change along with my oldest sister as she changed her name to. My younger sister Chontae is not excited about the change but has agreed to call me Ryder in public spaces as for the younger ones they're to young to understand so when they are older I will tell them and as for William I will be telling him very soon.

Being well male won't change how others see me well some others. Some people will see me as a freak or as a criminal but how some will see
me is as me because it doesn't matter what gender or pronouns people go by there people to that deserve respect and love. Everyone should get a chance to voice there gender and pronouns without being judged.

I wounder how being a male would change how I feel but it changes more then you think I feel like a completely different person maybe because I am, being trans doesn't change you but changes you. What I mean is your personality is the same kinda it will obviously change over time but what your personality is at the time will stay the same and the same with appearances.

Honestly everything changes over time but the one thing that changes most in me is my personality one day I am the most fun person to be with and the next you come near me and your dead. That's the fun of me you never know what mood i'm in but that also makes it really hard to make friends so I have two friends that I know secretly judge me and one friend that I can trust.  So making friends is hard when no one knows who you are.

Being transgender can be really hard but it is worth it to be who you want to be. I have only known for a year in two days which will be 5/11/2021 and only came out to family early july and still haven't came out to my school or my friends and most of my siblings but I will when the time is right because they are still young an don't understand what it's like being... diffrent.

Being diffrent is good... right?  Being diffrent means your unique thats right your not weird your unique and unique is good don't listen to everyone that says that unique is bad becasue you can't fit in when you were born to stand out simple logic really. I'm unique this whole story is about my whacky life and I will look back on this book later in life and remember what it was like to live such a funny yet painful life.

I want everyone reading this book to look at yourself in the mirror and name three things that make you uniqe I will go first ready.
1) I collect stuff toys then donate them. Donating stuff toys makes me sad becuase of all the young people out there that will never get to hold a stuff toy in there hands or hold a pretend marrige for a fluffy unicorn and a brown and white horse.
2) I actualy like school. Liking school is good becase then you can go to university and get a sucessful job and make heaps of money which you definatly need in life to make a good living, they say that money can't buy happiness and it can't but it definatly helps with wellbeing.
3) I love to sing. Singing is a wonderful creatinve outlet and I can garentee you have sng at least once in the shower or in the car during a long car drive and if you haven't go outside right now and sing your heart out this is a must, and if you have sung before go and sing another song to show everyone your reading my book.
 

You are unquie, you are wanted, you are amazing. Remember that write it down in big bold letters because you are brilliant and UNIQUE. Remember never to be ashamed of who you are and never to judge someone for being who they want to be.

This chapter has gone completely off track from being transgender to being unique but this chapter has made the same point... Be unique because you are you. I became me by being unique so it has all gone along the same track really.

I hope this chapter has inspired you to be more confident in yourself and have less fear. Not no fear because we need fear for a happy and healthy life but have less fears because some fears aren’t worth having.

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