is there anyone like me?

I often wonder If I am the only one who sees the way I do. Looking around each and every day and finding the majority of the world including myself to be filthy, yet no matter how bad it gets all you need to do is wipe away the dust so it sparkles like new. I was  raised a certain way to treat people with respect who deserve respect, I try to be good but I feel like inside my mind I am such a horrible person, each day trying to make others around me happier just so I dont feel sad, like a ever creeping shadow riding up my spine, but only the smiles keep it at bay. I could never be like everyone else no matter how hard I try, friends ask why I dont settle down, and my answer is a simple one, I havnt met the right person. its alwayse replied by a sarcastic haha. I dont want to be alone, but I do not want to be unhappy either. The way I see it is id rather be alone and doing what I enjoy doing than with sombody I secretly dispise or have distaste for being around, so until the day I am able to find that  special somone I will remain the same, alone.

I wish there was some kind of magic cure all for every problem in live, wouldnt that be awesome? yet alas there is not so each day of life is a struggle no matter how hard you fight or try, to be the best you can be. Each day is a challenge, an obstacle to overcome; get stronger from each acomplishment, and learn from all of your mistakes,I feel like a lot of people just settle for just enough and no longer feel the urge to keep moving foward, I hate my job but I wont quit because I know its that hate for my current job tht will keep me moving and not standing idle by. I suppose I could keep going but then if I went on and on none of you would ever get to read this, this is what I think about I guess. could it be possilbe that maybe just maybe I'm alot like you?