Who will pick me up?

This chapter is closed, yes indeed 
The more she will create her own bleed 
I place a seed 
Into my eaten away motherhood 
The cells inside of me grow flowers instead of cancer it’s disease 
The blood coming my way after another cut 
Makes of me the slut 
Of the night 
When men see me in their sight 
Not her, 
Never Sophie 
Never 
But me

When the chapter was closed
I made love to another man 
Gods plan 
To find another “husband” and my mission to try to fix his loving hand 
When he touches me 
I am at sleep 
When he kisses me
I don’t feel a thing 
But the thought of it kills me 
I wish I was awake 
For Gods sake 

The rose is growing 
Built on pleasure as the stones 
I built a castle with 
With Diana on my side 
We never hide 
It
When we want 

This chapter is closed, yes indeed 
The more she will create her own bleed 
I place a seed 
I place a seed 
A seed

…The rose is still there 
Who will pick me up?

Nadiya