Feelings

You know, the funniest thing is I'm not even trying to hide my feelings anymore. If I had the chance to, I would yell to the world these troubles caught inside me. 
But
I have this problem. Where I have no idea how to express my feelings I'm feeling right now. I know how they make me feel and that is definitely not good but I don't know how to say it without sounding psychotic or indecisive or just a plain person lost. 

My other problem is that even if I found a way to express them, I don't know who I would say it to. Sure there's people I could but I can picture the response right now "oh. That sucks" or something short and not so sweet to the hear. 
I want to be comforted. 
I want to be told it's alright and it's not forever and he will love me and I'm no hookup and life gets easier and feelings stop hurting you and eventually I just want to live on the beach with him and my kids and surf and love life because as of right now nothing sounds better. 

But instead of being surfing or seeing my love I'm stuck, stuck seeing him with someone else and green fields instead of blue waters and all I can do is wish. Wish for love. Wish for water. Wish for her to get better. Wish for you my love. Wish for us. And wish for answers to come quicker because I don't know how much more of this I can take.