I wish he was never in my life

I really wish my real father was never in my life. He is a drinker, abuser and doesn't know what stop means. He use to "tickle" me a lot but his nails would leave marks on my skin. I hated him a lot. He wanted me to be his perfect country princess but I was the, exact opposite of what he wanted. I`m just happy he is out of my life now