Long lost lover

I was fourteen & walking with my friend
Our eyes locked as you were walking the same as I, 
We stopped & asked who of us would you date
You chose me, I was elated, nearly I could fly, 
The years passed by, as we made our mistakes
We learned of intimacy & love, took its toll, 
The loss & hurt for years I felt as we're over by end of school 
Seeing you with your girl & husband, tore me to unwhole, 
I wish sometimes I could go back & do it over again 
For the path I chose was worse, its killing me inside, 
As one beam of light shines on my shadows & soars
For glad was I, in her life to be loved by her, mine I still hide.