Who Am I?

Me versus we

It is becoming increasingly apparent that the citizens of today's world are a very self-focussed bunch which seems to be a world away from the world preached in the Christian eras still being preached in a decreasing number of churches to this day. 

This leads me to consider the best course of action to lead one's life God aside and how an individual life can impact those around them leading to a worldwide change-of course you will always find rogue minds yet it seems the mindset (or ignorance) of the majority dictates the state of the world as a whole. 

I have therefore considered two courses of possible action in an effort to bring some understanding to this thing we call life based on personal experience and observations.

Course 1: love/service to others

The first course of action is to love others in order to feel fulfilment. This would be to live with a selfless nature and although seemingly good and holy at a glance, I cannot help but feel completely drained of all personal energy/resources to the point where I would end up poor and lonely having given up all I have to serve another. Of course this would depend on how others receive my charity and whether or not they wish to give back. But would it actually be seen as a righteous act give expecting the same back from another in return? Also how fulfilling would this be to my own self? Sure, I would feel good to help out others but perhaps this is not a wise course of action to seek true happiness and personal fulfilment as this is based on help in return from others. However, I feel if I have worked for my gains why should I share with those who have not gained due to slothfulness or distraction and what good does this do them? This is where I feel most religions are going wrong. How can I possibly be a light to others if I am under their feet constantly lifting them up? Also from a physical point of view, what would that leave me with? What would that leave the future generations of my family with? Which leads me to the alternative.

Course 2: Love/service to self

The second course of action, which did not initially come naturally to me due to being quite a coy child, is to think of one's self first. This made the most sense to me after studying the way today's society seems to work. Of course it makes perfect sense to love yourself and is increasingly taken to extremes by various individuals attracting attention for various reasons. But of course any publicity is good publicity as 'they' say. Looking at most successful people in the world, it seems very fulfilling to think of one's self by indulging in all things one would desire such as money, fame and power and if you can get it, why not? But would any of that truly make me happy? For how long can these pleasures keep me happy? I like to see myself as a considerate individual and would like to help benefit others without losing out personally. I want it all, but in order to have that I have to work to achieve it. So if these material manifestations of periodic fulfilment help to life me up spiritually and mentally while I work on fulfilling my personal talents perhaps concentrating on personal fulfilment is the best path to true happiness? Perhaps it is possible to have it all and surely from a worldly perspective, when I take care of myself and my own needs this has a positive impact on the world around me also, or at the very least, I work to build a world I want to live in and have a greater say on how this world should look. If everyone did this, I am positive humanity would collectively and in time start to see a much more sustainable and welcoming environment to meet our collective needs and the needs of our children and future generations to come.

Conclusion

Maybe the best course is to learn how to love self, then focus on projecting that image as a beacon of light that inspires others to do the same. One thing is for certain, the future of our planet and possibly our existence depends on the choices we, as individuals make. For in the end we only have ourselves to blame.