Poem -

The War Within, Demons of Detox

Written in Withdrawal

How is it that today
I'm just...okay?
Better than miserable,
which is usually the case.

Running on two hours of sleep,
I arrived at work early
for once, actually early.
This is todays highlight.
No phone, no money,
just my notebook I wish I'd brought.

I'm still struggling to enjoy feeling this way again.
Relearning the only life I've ever known.
The demons haven't hushed.
Persistent, intrusive, rude.
I ignore them but they're reluctant.
I thought I was the determined one.

The inside of my mind
now a battlefield of scars and glory.
A 24/7 war
to celebrate victory or defeat.
A constant inferno within myself.
Leave me... I'm pleading.
Leave me... I'm screaming.
Leave me... I'm begging, I'm bleeding.
They mock me, they refuse, they linger.
Uninvited company.

The battle rages on, unbroken; the war inside me has no finish line.
I'm depleted. I beg, I plead, I wither.
I ask them to leave.
Instead, they postpone our date for a later time.
Intrusive stalker.

A cycle of soaring, then crashing,
I float on borrowed bliss, only to be slammed back down into the wreckage.
Regret creeps in,
I wish I left this abusive relationship sooner.
Narcissistic Lover.
This is the love that keeps you tight in it's grip, forever attached, always crawling back for more.
Building you up with false dependency,
Feeding you beautiful lies, and covering up the truth with black and blued eyes.

Yet I have escaped.
Undefeated warrior.

But the love of shadows
keeps pulling me back,
dragging me into this malevolent pit.
Lost again in this unknown realm,
Demons playing hacky sack with my soul
until I lose everything
except the reason I fell.
Stolen dreams.
Lost hope.

 

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sparrowsong

Hello Nicky...

Sounds like you're on way of doing something Great...

They're trying to stop you...

Grease the Ladder rungs as you climb...

They'll slide right back down...

Keep going forward...

One step at a time...

Mention Jesus they hate that...

They have to Flee...

sparrowsong Ice Queen

 

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sparrowsong

Great write!

Thank you for sharing...

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