Silent screams

"No, no, no, no!" I screamed, until I was suddenly rendered silent as more pain shot through me, making my legs spasm and my head cloudy. My skin burning, and burning with each movement. I watched my deadened feet dragging on the ground, leaving a path of dug up dirt before me. I felt myself spinning out of control. I was trying to breath, but I couldn't suck in any air, it was too painful, it burned, crushing me under a magnificent weight. I was drowning. The despair was more than I could stand. Was I going mad? I clawed my way out but the pain was dragging me back under, working it's way into my ribs, trying to part them and pry me open. Where was he? I needed him now l, I grabbed at imaginary fingers, craving his touch like it was the only thing that could keep me from sinking into hell for eternity. I shrieked his name one last time before the darkness surrounded me. There was no air here. The pain was immense, like someone had stuck a live wire to my body and jolted me with electricity. My skin prickled and vibrated, the needles jabbing me all over. I put my head down to kiss his cold lips, shaking uncontrollably, hardly able to connect. I couldn't lose him. This wasn't happening, it had to be a dream. "Wake up!" I screamed again and again and again. I held onto him tightly. They would have to tear my cold dead fingers off of him. 
I woke up sweaty, and cold, it was still dark and could hear the birds chirping. I knew it must not be far from morning. I dragged myself up and brought my knees to my chest. My dream still echoing in my head. God I miss him..