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 Here i am once more infront of you , look into my eyes dont you dare look away look at all the pain you have caused me can you see the trails of my tears? Once more i stand before you at the edge of my destruction , so many questions unanswered, what more must i endure in order to be happy ? How many more times must i fall in order to be able to stand? I have begged , cried to you my god and in response all i have to show is a broken person trying desperately to hold all the pieces together , you give me a taste of true happiness and then you take all away.  So many years have past and i have survived all your test but they seem to have no end , trying to find my purpose as i try to survive yet another trial my life goes on , i have lost all i hold dearly and yet i still stand tall my pride slowly fading away as it does i can feel so much pain so much sadness inside all this feeling being new to me , what have done wrong god that my whole life has been a never ending trial cant figure out what you want out of me, dear god i just wish one day you allow my test to finish so i can finally be happy 
                         sincerely
              A humbled sinner..