26/12/16 to 13/5/17

I’ll walk out your life and greet mine again,
try and salvage what's left of my friends.
I grab my coat, my purse, my brush,
forgetting what was "ours" and "us”.
I'll leave behind your empty room with all our memories in its tight cocoon.
walk out into the bright sunshine, while questions pour down inside.
 
I walk straight never daring to look back, losing your weight never happened so fast.
the sky opens up to me, apologetically
recreating each breath with you was never harmony.
 
My feet feel light yet grounded,
losing my guilt has truly found
a new side to my twisted journey,
always trying to find closure in my vocabulary.
Searching for my thoughts and my ideas on my own,
thinking I’ve gone numb but feeling chills in my bones.
I’m all talk now just useless garbage words, no filter in place just disorientated slurs
my rants have no end with point forgotten, often I look to a new home,
fear surrounded
 
I spoke to you again with this new-found attire, you blew straight past it knowing I was a liar.
three words and you cut me down to a stump, all that growing really fucked up my trust.
I crave harmed souls, ones with no feeling or thoughts, just empty bodies who hurt my intimate thoughts.
No one feels like you or sounds alike, I should begin to start learning that this is alright,
I feel no connections just empty touch and glances,
having a lubricant always betters my chances.
When I wake to find my choices laid under cotton, I truly miss you the most,
I am forever yours and you’re never forgotten.