4:04 am

where do i go from here? 
you know,
i promised i wouldn't cry over spilled milk,
yet here i am,
the white liquid spilling onto the counter,
Pouring onto the floor until it slowed to a drip, 
that's not the only thing that dripped,
tears slowly falling making a trip, 
this milk wasn't meant for me, 
but here i am 
Where do i go from here ? 
you promised you wouldn't leave me, 
you did that repeatedly,
mentally,
physically,
emotionally,
you broke me,
my lungs collapsed, 
then you came back,
took my heart and ripped it out my chest, 
you threw it onto the ground,
i gave you my best..
where do i go from here ? 
every evening i watch the rest of the day pass by,
constantly wondering why,
i often sin but i still drearily look at the night sky,
looking for a sign,
you were my north star,
you were my guide to the free,
you were the reason i wanted to breath,
clouds came and you went away,
i begged you to stay, 
im going insane,
tears falling again and i no longer have a reason to stay, 
Where do I go from here ?