A Christmas Griever

It’s almost Christmas again, and I’ve lost more family
I guess God needed them, that’s why he keeps taking them from me
I’m no longer mad, I’m still upset, but what needs to be done, needs to be done
I didn’t realize how hard holidays were without my family, it’s just not fun
I’m a Christmas griever like many people in this world
But sometimes, grief is harder for one, or for many, I’m just a sad girl
I look up to the skies every night for answers and guidance
But I must admit, I’m losing faith and I’m losing the holiday confidence
My heart seems to be in two, but no matter what, I’m always thinking of you
I’m a soft Christmas griever, but I can’t hold it all in anymore
I just want my family back, but I know they can’t physically come back no more
I want the holidays to be as simple as ever
But my feelings and my judgement's are tainted forever
I wrote this poem not because it’s sad
But to be reminded that I still have family, and not everything is so bad
I just miss all the good times, and the moments we once had
I’m a Christmas griever, and this is all I wanted to say
Family gone, and family here, I’m just going to try and have a good day.

Stephanie Davis
December 2020