A Day in my Life

I live as though I am not. 
Bad days come in waves,
My feelings are in a knot. 
My life, anxiety enslaves.
My eyes are red,
But but not from what you assume.
I cry all night in my bed,
Then the horrifying thoughts bloom.
I put on my mask,
I brave the world. 
Only then I ask, 
Today what will be unfurled?
That is the life I am living,
Let’s hope time might be forgiving.