A empath with no instructions

Feeling like your drowning in hot lava 
Barely able to speak your mind 
Everytime you try it feels like freezing water being poured down your throat
You try to move out of the toxic habit
Everytime you try, you sink in deeper in despair
All you want is to breath in some fresh air
Everytime you just want to say no
Something holds you back and you feel so guilty if you do
So you turned around and say yes
All you feel is just a bubbling wrath 
They don't tell you being a empath, drains you
You feel every rare emotion
Even when you try to set boundaries
It's like why do I even try
Cause I just don't wanna see them cry
Ugh, just why can't there be instructions on being a empath
You know what needs to be done
But in the end it just hurts so much
You know this is good for you mental health
Because this toxic trait will continue to drown you
Like your drowning in hot lava 
With freezing artic water being poured down your throat
But now you have done what you needed
And this lava starts to harden
now a little bit of the weight as been lifted
Some light shines through
As this dark shell starts to break open
You start to feel alittle bit more free
Not because of what happened but due to no more weight has been added
So this is why I think this needs instructions 
No one knows what to do with all these feelings of emotions of being a Empath!