A feeling

As I put my head on my pillow emotions start to flow. I close my eyes and hope to die wishing all the pain would go. As I wake up every morning forcing a fake smile, pretending I’m happy and okay living in a lie. I stay in my room most of the days, thinking of ways to end the pain. Memories flood my head tears flood my eyes, next thing you know I feel paralyzed, numbness of emotions, I still sob wishing one day that it will all stop, emptiness of a heart, fear of the unknown, if I close my eyes for the rest of my life maybe it will all go.