A letter of Love..

‘Beloved mine’
 
I am undone…I am adrift…I am beset with madness
Will I ever be the same mortal I was before you?
In that moment all was lost….forever
A symbiosis formed that now will never be  transformed
 Or back to a time before you……
The path we are walking is unknown and with twists and turns
enough to cause us to fall ..but holding your hand will
be all I need to face unknown challenges and whatever crossroads we meet.
You filtered through my waking dreams and pulled me into yours.
We sailed blind in to our passion and downfall,
No warning or preparation for the cataclysmic change overtaking us…
Love raw and yet…never more perfect.
Guilt only for others…none for us…we need our love, deserve our love,
yearn and live for our love.
I sit at my window watching the dawn break. A lucid sky promising
A beginning, unknown, familiar - yet secret.
The tree, our tree, starkly outlined against the horizon, now the
bare branches no longer a canopy of leaves sheltering our entwined bodies,
but still the ground’s velvet,mossy carpet..so soft and yielding…
forever a memory of love’s fulfilment.
Your absence is a void in my heart nothing can repair.
I miss you….so so much beloved….
Does she feel her heart stutter when you come close?
Does she touch your hair- just to connect with you?
Can she know the words of love you hide within your eyes?
Can she see the treachery of unrequited love?
The mute acceptance of a life devoid of passion, the longing to be with you….
Just you.
Folly is for others, ours will be a permanence, a forever love.
To speak of it aloud cuts me, confuses me, makes me afraid…
Too afraid to hope that I am not alone to feel these things…
I write these words hoping to speak to your heart, to fix it
in your promise that today is the day….the promised day,
that you confess your love for me…to her.
Be gentle, be solicitous, be loving..but mostly
Be mine.