A mothers apology

My own blue eyes defiantly staring back at me

Immitations of my actions formed irreversibly by three

Manifested sorrow line little arms now resembling mine lessons learned from mommy on how to deal with "im just fine"

Her outlook on life is mishapen and distorted by silent notes mentally recorded

observed treatment for others and how she should be treated over ride heart felt talks about  and have long since been deleted

Above average IQ equally only by her beauty have been failled by a mother unable to do her most important duty

She's connected by a disconnect that keeps her from letting people get to close she pushes away the ones she loves and needs the most

I showed her how much I loved her and physically kept her in perfect health not knowing I needed to focus more on self love and acceptance for its worth far more than the richest rich mans wealth

Regretful remembering how often I used a particular quote have left something in you broken and keep you secluded and remote "Do as I say not as I do"

My little baby bird the life I have always loved more than my very own appalogize for all the lesson said but never shown