A Painful Rutt

Why is it that you can not see 
This pain and suffering your causing me 
For many years it's been this way
Though now it's almost every day
The stress I have, consumes my mind
Happiness, now hard to find 
I do not like who I've become
An angry, hateful, loaded gun
Yet still I am in love with you 
And yes I know you love me too
But love no longer is enough 
I'm over living life so tough
In 15 years we've stayed the same
I feel you think that life's a game
So please I beg, change our life
Remind me why I became your wife