A reminder that you’re not my father

Hello father look at me.
You have a glow in your eyes 
Your unusually happy to see me
What's that I look beautiful?  
So great to hear that from you 
Yeah I did.
I wished I had you as a kid
Oh my father don't get drunk 
That liquor will turn you into a punk
Wait father don't touch me there
I thought you looked at me and saw the daughter you never had.
Because when I looked at you I saw my dad
And I know I'm not a girl
Now I am a women. 
I used to men's stares 
Them putting there hands where they are not to be 
But not you father I'd never would have thought 
You broke all the dreams in this little girls heart
You abandoned me father 
The liquor took your brain and left your body. 
That glow behind your eyes is now blank
I can't help but think I bought this upon my self.
We're my jeans too tight 
Why'd I wear this shirt 
Would it be worse if I'd worn a skirt?