A ride with Freddie and Ziggy

Sitting in the passenger seat
The city getting farther away from view
Feeling nothing but cold in the unbearable heat
All I could do is feel myself slipping away as I look at you.

Ziggy’s sitting behind me
Wondering what could be on my mind
While the Tin Machine just lets it all be
Lost deep inside myself, looking for something I can’t find.

Thousands of people keep speeding past us
Going quietly down the road like mindless lemmings
I look up and see the people staring at me on a bus
As the lights inside the cabin are slowly dimming

Eve sits next to Ziggy while I continue to get lost in thought
A familiar voice that echoes in my mind like an echo
Like the sound of the rain hitting the ground after a long drought
Or the screams deep inside a lazaretto

I am not rotten nor am I damaged
But I feel like sometimes I can’t make heads or tails of anything
Like my soul is cluttered by tons of useless baggage
While no one can tell how far I feel like I am slipping

I turn to see you looking at me still taking a long drag
I’m not sure if she wants to love me or kill me.
You just turn away as I just watch you smoke the fag
Knowing in a crowd of people I feel like I am alone on the sea

I watch you tap away oblivious to the my own inner turmoil
While Eve whispers to me about how she wants to escape her Hell
Still feeling trapped by the pain rather than lancing the boil
I try to be there for her, but I don’t know what else I can do or tell

I feel so far away from what is around me
That even Ziggy slowly fades into the distance
The only thing that grab my attention is a tree
It’s strange fruit sway back and forth reaching for my assistance

And the dolphin begins to slowly jump from the water
Looking at me with a playful smile
While one of the five ladybugs leaves its safety and begins to wander
Stopping at my hand and just wants to stay a while

I close my eyes in pure resignation
Not even sure what it is I am feeling at this moment
Maybe I should just let go of this confusing situation
And all the thoughts that just fester and torment  

I feel so tired of it all
I don’t want to die but I don’t know how to live
Instead of rising all I feel like I do is fall
Sometimes it feels like I receive less than I give

It’s a loneliness I wish that wasn’t there
Scratching at me from the inside like a beast
Making its way through my soul until it is bare
Like I am some glorious feast

I try to talk to you about it, but I feel like I can’t
Only Ziggy has been able to listen to me.
Though when I talk, It comes out like a mindless rant
And I feel like questioning why God allowed me to be

Yet I find some comfort in talking to Eve about these problems
A fellow traveler that seems to understand
Just someone I can give me a bit of solace, even if it’s quantum
Just so you don’t feel like she wants to give a backhand

As I hear Eve’s voice whispering in my ear
The sweet melody helping me feel calm in this uncertain storm
While you just sit there quietly knowing that she’s here
But you are busy in every other way shape or form

I look up at the sky and wonder if this is just a fight for my soul
On one side I have you, the one person who is able to help me get through
On the other side I have another person who sharing the same dark hole
Only wanting to let go of this dark weight that just seems to accrue

At the top of the hole I see you doing your best to push me forward
While I hold on to Eve’s hand, trying my best to save her from the abyss
I look at my hand holding on to her and then back up towards the future I am reaching toward
Both paths in their own way would lead me to some kind of bliss

I let go and continue to reach out towards you
Knowing that I need to be strong and see past the shallow
And look at the deep even when at times it seems to be Pyrrhic
But I know that your love for me is nothing fake or hollow

Ziggy doesn’t want to hear me say life is taking me nowhere…
Yet, the uphill battles that I fight sometimes take their painful toll
While you continue to grab on to my hand leading me to somewhere…
Knowing that both of us are reaching for the same goal

And Freddie can be heard behind the Tin Machine singing his Rhapsody
About that one moment that is set aside for us
In the back of my mind I can only see nothing but agony
Knowing that We Can’t Have Forever since everything eventually turns to dust

Even those Who Dare to Live Forever, know that there is no chance
It has all been decided and eventually slips away from us
Like the world is one giant waltz and I just hopelessly dance
No matter how much I want to make a fuss

Even when my heart cries out to you, I wonder if I can be heard.
No matter how lonely I feel, part of me knows that she can save me
And all I can do is look out the window, so afraid to say a word.
That I find myself on the floor looking up at her on a bended knee.

Ziggy moves aside as Freddie looks at me, his eyes saying volumes
Like me he is hiding in the dark waiting for someone to let him out…
But he stands there quietly smiling because it’s the one thing he values…
Knowing that the Show must Go On without any fear or and doubt.

Quietly, Freddie slowly fades away back into the darkness like some stealthy visitor
However, he still echoes around us while signing Somebody to Love
His voice resonating within me like he was trying to get rid of what me feel insecure
Trying to help me rise above.

Deep down I know that I am the Champion of my World
No matter how many people try to make me to believe that I am not
I still keep on moving forward trying to keep that beast furled
Each step bringing me closer to that destined spot.

You look at me like you want to wrap your legs around my neck
Wanting only to choke out the part of me that makes me want to withdraw
I look at you with blood on my face, my eyes looking like they are trying to keep me in check
You only laugh at me, your voice like the sound of heaven to my ears, in some form of awe.

I feel like I am walking on some kind of odd tightrope not sure where which way I will go
One way is the path to keeping moving forward and the other just feels like it wants me to die
All I know is that I want to go anyway the wind blow
Showing that I will not let anyone stone me and spit in my eye.

I look at you and just take a deep breath as I just decide to take a look at that Fanny
Just sitting there thinking about what the hell was really putting me in such a blight
The only thing that was on my mind right now was taking in every little nook and cranny
While I just wanted to sit beside you in that red fire light.

You only shakes your head like you can’t believe that while you take a hold of the wheel.
Moving my hand up your thigh like the child ready to open his Christmas present
While you mockingly admonishes me only to let out a small orgasmic squeal
Your body swaying like a tree in the wind, each little movement letting me know you're content

In the back of my mind I just do my best to keep it all together.
While Ziggy looks on reminding me about the moment you know, you know, you know.
I just know that it doesn’t take too much for me to lose the tether
While Freddie continues to keep on going since you can’t stop the show.

I still hear Eve's voice in the distance, one that has been there for a long time 
But sometimes you have to let that voice go no matter how much you try to deny
It doesn't mean that the memories are impulses but rather just part of the paradigm 
That sometimes things fade away into the past but sometimes they have to die