A sense of hope

Save me from myself
Because I've got somewhere to go
I don't know how I'm gonna get there but I keep traveling down this road
I want so badly to get there
But all I can muster is fear
I take one step at a time
It seems I don't move at all
Progress is little to none everything seems so small
With a tired mind and blistered feet
Scarred skin from a past of painful details
All it means is a brighter future with a long walk to repair
No one can save me I'm at my own fate and will
I walk this path to heal
Progress is slow but grows in the end
When I've tried so much but it's hard to mend
When I know what's behind me but doubt what's ahead
I have a sense of hope I manage to hold up my head
Through all types of weather I continue down this long difficult road
Not knowing what's at the end I slow my pace but will not yield nor complain
There are wonders at the end of this road I've walked so far I just know
I've taken many wrong turns along the way
Learned many lessons even created and healed more pain
As I walk I carry the burden of a ton
Become confused over which paths to run
Take a few falls stand back up
As I pass faces they don't know what to believe
Do I have a chance or will I continue to deceive
They see me as a menacing girl
A simple name
A rebel with an attitude
 Not a chance to change
People curse me laugh and point
But I still walk through the pain
Thinking of the abuse forced upon me
More importantly the abuse I suffered from my own hand
So much to work on 
So much to improve
I know if I didn't walk this road I'd be more battered and bruised
I tolerate the struggles tears and pain
In the end it will pay off
There's a sense if hope I still have much to gain