Abandonment Issues

Why do I still see you in my reflection?, 

But when I turn around all I see is regret, 

I let you in my life and tried to fix what’s not broken, 

Only to take your disrespect, 

Your own mother called telling you she’s dying, 

Yet everything wrong with you is her fault?, 

Left to live in the ghetto for 28 years, 

You cut too deep left her to bleed, 

And threw salt on the wound after you leave, 

Don't expect me to cry when it’s your turn to die, 

That surprise in your eyes,

When I tell you goodbye for the last time, 

Too many times you crossed the line in sand so fine, 

Searched all over for a sign, 

But all I find is a shallowed grave full of lies, 

Tossed my dreams to the open sea, 

Floating along the sunburnt breeze, 

Dont expect me to beg like a dog on its knees, 

Id rather see you in hel and watch your soul freeze, 

Seems like your speciality is destroying families, 

Don’t ever call me your seed, 

Because your tree is just an overgrown weed, 

What goes around comes around,

Yeah that’s a hell of a statement,

Carved your name in my flesh, 

Now I want blood as repayment.