Aching heart

 what a feeling it is to feel a heart hurt .such a sensation. This heavy heart of mine fighting all the tears all the fears coming true , dark thoughts consuming my mind so much pain knowing all is lost cant find strength to stand .All my pride is gone .What did i do to deserve this. Why must my heart suffer when all i did was love , a dark room my shelter has become hiding this broken person trying to repair this heart of mine .Why must the person i loved caused so much pain as tears fall letting all flow out trying to comprehend what went wrong who am i to say if today is my final day maybe i will see a smile on her face... Such pain how to repair how to stop the unstoppable who have i become. Closing eyes to escape to a place i wish was real only mistake was loving so much ....... Seeing all our love die in an instant .Never believed it was possible. A villain i have become even tho you did the most damage . as i scribble away trying to vent in hopes the pain is less cant help to think in your eyes i was never the one .Silence fills a room as my heart ticks away what will become of this heart of mine never felt so much like this never cried so hard like this .Is just so hard to comprehend such a violent way to end something we once had. Picture by picture i see as u burn them all erasing our past every note every i love you becomes fuel to a fire , the anger in your eyes demands more reprimand killing what is left of our once beautiful love .Time will tell if i can heal once more time will tell if you made the right choice if all the tears and pain shedded. For you will make you happy scribbling away how to let go how to drown so many thoughts many feelings how to drown it all and yet still breath night comes and goes such a small comfort . maybe one day our path will cross maybe one day ........ Another story comes to an end another heart dies like the rest looking up to the heavens begging for some sort of comfort to feel a little joy to a silent god i pray my soul to take away to a silent god i pray my soul to take .....