Alone

I'm alone
My thoughts keep me company
Sometimes they are fleeting
Not always lucid
I know them now, I can't be fooled.
Silence hurts my ears
Something building up inside
I'd rather not re-do anything
I can't take the same way back
If everything made sense I wouldn't exist
If nothing ever changed I wouldn't want to
If i had friends I would ignore them
If I didn't have friends they would ignore me
I'm drowning but I'm not
Im Healthy but I suffer
I don't remember how to smile
And I'm glad
Monotony contains my soul
Consumption distracts me
I fight for anonymity
In a world of social misfits
I'm colorless, I'm blind fury
I want something
I'll never know what that is
If I did I couldn't afford it
If my family knew me I would not have to write my own eulogy
I'm at peace not in pieces
I will endure the rain
Alone

Travis Rogers,