Alone

The alone feeling is not something new, it has always been there for me. It is a feeling I can't run away from how much I do try. That feeling will always make an appearance no matter what I do.  It is automatically something which is apart of me. I can surround myself with people who I deeply care about but sometimes even doing them certain things don't seem to help me.  Deep down this feeling is eating me alive, just want this feeling to disappear because it makes me feel worthless and isolated from people around me when I need people the most. I do everything I can to make this feeling go away but nothing ever seems to work.  Talking to someone about how I feel, can help me a lot but having the courage is difficult at times because you don't have the trust or confidence to confide in someone else with your issues, therefore, you bury them deep down someone and place that smile on your like you do all the time because you don't want anyone to know and you become distant from people who meant something to you. Go back to the feeling of being alone and isolated from everyone because that's the only way you cope with your issues.