Alone

You wait at the bottom of the stairs for me while my children sleep

Your coldness chills my spine and wont let me sleep

You are in every room, every moment, with every breath

sometimes to escape you i think about death

I close my eyes, but you are still here

Try to ignore you, be brave and face the night

But when a new days comes, i face another fight. 

No one to share my worries with, no hand to hold for comfort

School runs, dinners made, little hands to be washed, a listening ear, wipe away a tear

Smile through it all, late home but no one will call to see if i am okay

Story time and tucked up for night

I walk down the stairs and there you are

 Like a monster in the dark, waits to hold me for the night

I have two reasons to keep fighting this hard fight

Two reasons why i make it through each night

They are my blessings, my heart and my life

Two sons lay sleeping, while i sit alone

Each day with them is my joy, and each moment you are gone i start to see the real monster is not being alone, the real monster is gone.