Always there

I’m like an old familiar shoe, back of the closet
out of view,
The sole is worn , the polish gone, in fact  it’s not worth
putting on.
but I stay there, all unobserved in case one day
you need me…..
 
I listen when you breath at night, you wheeze, I know
your chest is tight
I stay awake, a sentinel ,to just make sure that all is well.
And in the morning making  tea, I hope today
you’ll notice me
Your eyes are clear, your gaze afar, some days you
don’t know who you are..
And even more you don’t know me- a stranger’s
all I’ll  ever be.
 
I miss my girl, I miss our love, I miss you
call my name.
I look at photos on the wall and wish we were
the same.
I think of times we loved and laughed and shared a secret
life.
I love and miss you oh so much
My sweet demented wife.