An ode to all my children <3

An ode to all my children <3 
You may think I'm being ignorant 
Ignoring every word you say 
You may think I don't want to know 
Wishing everything would go away 

You may think I don't see anything 
I can't see past the end of my nose 
You may think I'm turning a blind eye 
Just not wanting to know 

What you don't see is how I feel 
When I'm watching you all fall apart 
You don't see the tears I cry 
When I'm in pain with a broken heart 

You only see what you want to see 
Me, being a selfish person 
You don't stop to think for a moment 
That maybe I'm just hurtin' 

I can't do anything for anyone now 
You're all grown ups, I'm not in charge of what you do 
I can only sit on the sidelines of your life 
And watch as you all become you 

I'm an observer 
A watcher 
I see everything happen 
I don't ignore anything now 

I'm a silent witness to all your commotion 
At most times I take a bow 
If it wasn't for me and all I taught you 
For everything I put you all through 

You wouldn't be the people you're now growing into 
You wouldn't be the adults you're now becoming 
You wouldn't know how to live your lives 
Without me leading you <3

Written 5/9/2015