Is Another Psychotic Episode Brewing?

I can feel it coming
I can feel it coming
My personality has been packed up
In boxes
Now it is unpacking itself
Now it is unfolding itself
Running this way and that.
This way and that.

I sleepwalk through my life
Only half aware of what’s going on
Numbed to reality
Numbed to reality
But now my personality is awakening.
Now it is expressing itself.
The long dead feelings are returning.

It may catch me by surprise, yet
I can recognise the bits I’ve learned about
In terms of Transactional Analysis
Am I moving from “Child” state to “Adult” state?
From “Child” state to “Adult” state?

Am I strong enough to handle it
To handle it?
To handle it?
To seize it by the horns?
Tame it?  Master it?
Or will I lose control?

Can I grasp the implications
Of what my personality might do
And what it might be capable of?
Will it overtake my consciousness-
Switch me onto autopilot?

These feelings I never really knew I had
Are surfacing
Are surfacing
Being unpacked and becoming apparent
And then…

Then I’ll lose control as I really become awake
And I’ll try and understand the World.
I’ll fly away
I’ll fly away.

It’s all happening now
The boxes are not unpacking
They’re exploding.
It’s all coming out.
It’s all coming out…

Do we control our personality or does our personality control us?