Another Year!

A happy new year again
With my whole family and friends
But the past will never leave my side
The fears I dreamed all night
This life is a roller coaster ride
They always come back to bite

The thunder roared and boomed
I stayed up locked in my room
Where was my thunder buddy then?
Each day I was the sin
The words were thrown around each day
Hate is here in every way
The things I do just for you

I came to all your games
I comforted when you were ashamed
Where were you when I turned 10?
What would happen if this would end?
Will I finally be your friend?
Would you share your love with me?

And here I stand once more
The lies you told behind the door
Why am I the target for you?
And after everything I do
The world will split into two
I'm known as the liar, that horrible blue

I look back when we were nine
Victory I wanted to be mine
When the thoughts occured
The nightmares I endures
Is this what you wanted all along?
My joy won't last that long
Please don't take me wrong

Tell me what is love
Is it hate or none?
Do you get to feel alive?
My love is hate and war
Asking what I love for
Through the trees of emotions I explore

In the bed I cry
How I took in every lie
They told me to ignore those words of hate
But I always come in to late
All of those years I felt weak
You, I will seek
I wake up and put on that sile
I'll always be in denial
Another day yet for me

"I'm not sad." I'll say
"I'm happy everyday."
No one will know except for you
But after everything you did
You pierced my heart, my soul, my life
Where would I be in another life?
"I love you." Those three words we never share
I want you to know I care
I guess love is a special rare