Apology

Numb to the pain,
I apologise
Nothing left to gain,
I apologise
Looking through your eyes,
Seeing the shame flash bright.

Numb to the joy,
I apologise
Nothing but the memory,
I apologise
Don't you forgive me?
Or do you love to hate..?

I'm walking through something
I can't see the light 
or the gate,
Anticipating,
Forever Procrastinating ,
Never quite Understanding,
Not really Demanding
But still
I apologise

What else is there left to do 
I look at myself through you,
I wonder if you see me 
The way you used too,
Do you still need me?
Or were you moving dreamy..?
Was I something you can't let go
But you hold on even more...?
I don't understand 
I'm Lost
But still
I apologise

But this goes deeper than deep,
More than below your feet,
Never Ending,
I ain't Pretending 
Nor Defending 
Just Spending time.
But still
I apologise

Nothing more to say,
But I'm sorry.
Nothing left to do,
But I'm sorry.
Look at Me...
Look at You...
But I'm sorry.
I guess I weren't enough 
And for that 

I Am Sorry.