Are You Sorry

are you sorry
for the hospital bills?
for the blood stains
in the bathtub
and on the floor?

are you sorry
for the scars that
won’t fade?
for all the uncomfortable
stares you get
in public?

are you sorry
for the pills and vomit
in the toilet?
for the empty bottles?

are you sorry
for all the notes
with handwriting
too messy to read
saying your goodbyes?

are you sorry
for all the years
of therapy and medication
gone to waste?

are you sorry
for the broken glass?
for the unmade bed?
for the dirty hair?
for the unwashed clothes?

are you sorry?

do you forgive yourself?