Are You Surprised?

Chaos is rising, and it’s rising in me to the verge of blowing up.
All the stress and pressure and anxiety bubbling up, but I’m never able to let it out
I just keep it inside.
I've already given up on myself twice, third time is the charm
I’m fine. Yeah, aside from the not sleeping
I feel so tired, but I can’t sleep
Don’t pretend to care
They say you die twice. One time when you stop breathing and a second time, a bit later on, when
somebody says your name for the last time.
Will you say my name?
Welcome to the inner workings of my mind
So dark and foul I can’t disguise
Are you surprised?
I’m fine. Yeah, aside from the not eating
I've lost weight, have you noticed?
Don’t pretend to care
This town's alright
But it's not enough
I'm looking for a quick exit
Like a prisoner on the run
Maybe I wasn't made for this world
I’m falling into darkness
going deeper and deeper until I can’t see the hand in front of me
Because nothing feels worse than feeling all alone
no matter how many people around you
I've got a war in my mind and its preparing for battle against my heart