BATTLE IN THE MIND

Tired of being tired living life with no desire ...got my mind wondering how to find the difference between the truth and the lies ..got the past creeping in seeping in ..if this is a dream then when does it end..alone on my own is all I ever known...no one really cares when it comes to your own affairs ..sometimes we create our own fears ..what we see n hear is not really what it appears. ..it's a battle in my mind with thoughts that are designed to create illusions ..memories I use to cherish are all gone n has perished ..a part of me is hard to see when you try to visualize what it feels like ..living this  life searching for reasons why my heart is bleeding in pain screaming in vain ..the silence is violent to be honest and modest I'm lying..I'm dying relying on science for The Cure that's eating n feeding my core .When it rain it pours what's left to explain when you've already beaten death at your door!....?