Becoming me

The time i spent locked in my mind
going crazy like im confined....
thoughts go a blur
memories wishing things as they were....
trying to move past ,live as you will
but something inside me another half that kills.....
suffering in pain slowly as it overcomes me
trying to live life as me as can be...
i know im hurt an delt a bad hand
but its up to him an what god has planned....
now i am a woman fighting for who i am
i know i can make it cuz ill be dam...
im not that frighted kid that always let this win
ive went threw so much
even the bad with my twin....
i shall rise like the ocean
go with the waves ...
cuz even the creatures
once were saved....
he walked on land and started new life
an now i am blessed an got my wife...
a new life a new beginning
a new baby to come
like all the pain that just went numb...
so here i am with new goals in hand
trying to find were in life i stand...
a new me brighter then ever
starting my journey
a new endeavor....