Begging For More

A confused soul,
Trapped in a hole,
Losing control,
Losing its sanity,
Using profanity,
Always damning me,
Constantly on guard,
Even when times aren't hard,
and when dealt a bad card,
In this game called life,
Nothing but pain and strife,
Cutting deeper than a knife,
Slicing away my very being, Cutting deeper than any is seeing, 
Holding me down; not freeing, Not freeing what's inside, 
Not freeing what I hide,
No matter how hard I've tried, or as hard as I'm going to try, That's truth; not a lie.
One day my soul will fly,
One day I'll become brandnew, One day I'll be true,
& not just say but do,
Do the things I've always dreamed,
The things that have always seemed,
So out of reach I want to scream,
Scream until my lungs are sore,
Scream until they know what for,
Scream leaving them begging for more.