Being controlled by addiction

How it would feel to be in control
To be in control of my body & soul
To awake each day with no pain
For my addiction to be erased from my brain 

My addiction has controlled my life for 26 years so much pain
So many tears
I have lost myself i have nothing left
I wish i could lay down and rest

As this addiction as taken my life
From a loving family home and wife
I can not live my life this way
I hope i can beat this addiction that controls me every single day.