True life of addiction

Dear drug,
I will not introduce myself as you know me so well,
The day I met you my life went straight to hell.
I'm  sharing this poem to let everyone know all about you
How you make me do the things that I do.

19 years ago I was a kind, caring lady
I dreamed of being a nurse, to help a sick baby
To own a home and be a loyal wife.
That was when I controlled my life,

My dreams have all changed after I met you,
I haven't done any of the things I wanted to do
Since that awful day in 1995,
The journey began but somehow I did survive

You become my closest friend,
i never wanted our relationship to end,
You blocked out all my pain, fear, and my past
I finaly found something to ease the pain at last.

But as time went on I began to steal and lie
Without you in my life  I thought  I'd rather die
I'd be so weak I  couldn't get out of my bed,
From morning til night only you in my head.

My family has disowned me
The life I knew is now history
It was the two babies I had in my care,
I  live with guilt because their life is so unfair.

I've hit rock bottom my babies  were my life.
I was such a good mom, and the perfect wife,
Now I sit here all alone, no food, no money, sleeping on the ground
But your still here you're still hanging around.

Because of you my children live with fear,
That one day soon, mommy won't be here.