Bi-Polar - Imagine

Bi-Polar - Imagine

Bi-Polar - Imagine
 
Imagine, just for a moment, that you are in a see through, sound proof box with very little room to move in the middle of time square in New York city.
 
There are thousands of people walking around you, people laughing and joking. These people are talking with friends and on phones. They are going in and out of shops having a wonderful day. Hundreds of cars are passing through the streets, but you are trapped in this box. You don’t know why you’re there, or how you even got there. You scream for help, start banging your fists on the box, but no one can hear you. These people don’t even notice that you’re there, they don’t hear you scream, they don’t know that you are running out of air.

Just think about it, put yourself in that box and try to imagine all your air supply is fading away, what do you feel?
Do you feel scared? Do you feel alone?

You can see everyone, but you hear nothing. It would only take one person to notice you are in that box, one person to look up and get you out. Time goes by and nothing happens. You are still trapped in this box, you are still running out of air.

This is what it is like for me on a bad day, and I can tell you now, a lot of my days are bad days.
The good days, I’m sat on top of that box, laughing with people, hearing car horns and the endless chatter on passers-by. I can hear sirens and the wind blowing past my ears. But on a bad day, I’m back in that box. And the worst part is, when I go to sleep at night, I genuinely have no idea if I will wake up in that box or not. It’s an endless battle.

I have bipolar. I may not have it as bad as some people, but that doesn’t make mine any less real. Anyone with a mental health issue will know what I have felt, and even some who don’t have a disorder would have felt like I do in that box at some point or another.

In my opinion, it only takes one person to help you. One person to care enough to get you out of that box.
Mental health isn’t a joke or a game. Its real and it affects so many people. You don’t have to be “damaged”, you don’t have to come from a broken home or have suffered abuse. You don’t have to be in debt or lost a loved one.

You just have to be alive to feel it.

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Tina

A very good strong write Hadley.

Tina x

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Tina

Hayley ... predictive text... so sorry x

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charlotte

hello .. i agree with tina here, strong piece of writing , well expressed .. i do not suffer with bipolar but i do suffer with dissociation and it can feel pretty damn horrible , at times . i can relate , it's hard 

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Hayley Missen

Thank you Charlotte, everyone suffers in one way or another. Whether it be small or large. We just all need support through the hard times.

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Mollyp

I really loved this, it can be hard to express how you feel and you did it amazingly. I too have bipolar disorder and people don't realize how real it is..

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Tina

Congratulations on the nomination x

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Alexis Krysyna

Bravo;
Definitively powerful and so much demonstrative imagery that you visually express how mental illness can affect us all.
-Very Poignant especially when one can identify with the situation of being mentally unstable or damaged.
-Thank you for sharing and may you have a very happy new year.
Alex
PS: Congratulations

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Tina

Congratulations, Hayley, a well deserved win x

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Theresa1974

I feel you. Im sorry you have days like that. You must be so scared. Please talk about it and dont worry about scaring anyone. You need to say how you feel. Its toi important. Get it out!!

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Lucy Parsons

hey Hayley, I cannot believe that I have only just read this. Couple of things....1) You are soooooo brave to write this amazing read, what strength you have within yourself to make amends with this and just generally crack on. 2) You are an inspiration to those who have daily struggles. You rock girlfriend!!!! xxxxxxx

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Hayley Missen

Aww thank you so much. It's been amazing the support I've had after writing this. :) x

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