Bitterness

If I choose not to rewrite a story

I'd say I am a mad black woman

Bitter and out of taste in words

I let my pride hide my true feelings

Let my stubbornness build me strong to look away

Not knowing I am becoming ugly myself

Unhealthy to my well being

The universe is whispering words of wisdom and peace

Yet dirty words come out from my mouth

Tasteless, dusty and negative words

Does it mean I lost respect in what I thought I knew?

Upset at the unknown

Trying not to dig in but live with the last of me

My pride

Mistake a woman makes

Instead of dealing with what's present

We instead acknowledge bitterness for protection

Resentment for self control

And shopping for healing the pain

Forgive my bad taste in words of no hope

No wisdom

I shall kneel down and let my creator cleanse me

For what I put in my mouth is not dirty but of what comes out of my mouth

Never let emotional pain,

Never let pride and bitterness

Be in control of your decision making

Pride restricting you from learning

Pain shutting you from happiness

Tracing back my steps

Before crashed in spirit

Before speaking words from the darkness within me

In between my words I say

"I want you, I want us

I want it all

With you and only you.

I miss you...

I love you... "

See, a woman has to build a man with wisdom words

Not in calling him names of madness!

Bitterness lives a bad taste in your mouth.