Blame

And so the truth of the matter is, I was born and bred in an atmosphere of complete emptiness and sadness, not too loud, not too silent, but just enough
To make an impression on my thoughts 

And so I became what I thought. 
Do not blame me. I am surrounded by this pain
Nothing you or I can do
But oh god how badly I want to have a normal mindset 
It's not meant to be 

And so, I will continue to live through the shadows of others, even though I shine as bright as an entire galaxy 
I will continue to kiss and forget, fully aware of that fact that I am ruining my life. 

Some people cannot be saved. No matter how desperately they wish to live